Roundabout
Things started to change.
I went on a trip to unknow and fascinating lands wth two friends of mine, girls with incredible flame of life and always turned on switch of adventure. I had great time and memories, and that was the moment when it all started to change.
One day when returning to the hotel, I went to the terrace for a cigarrette, that had a beautiful view to the whole town. I looked trough a nerby window, it was a bar. The girls were sleeping, and I decided to go for a walk downtown, where I saw nearly everyone was with someone special. I was alone, of course. I had always been alone. I remember myself walking untill I had no energy left and then went to sleep. I dreamt of myself glowing on a golden glow, surrounded by cool people, having drinks at a bar. I wanted to feel that way, and so my unconscious was telling me that, feelings loke those, wanted to show and be felt, but I knew that I wasn't the one to make that possible yet.
The trip went well, and we returned to pur homes, Pernille, one of the girls was returning to Denmark, and Seiko, was returning to the town I was raised. I didn't, I was already stablished in the major city I told you all about in the last post, Puebla.
Puebla is a big city where people is pretentious and preppy. Both boys and girls. But I was different. One day back in Th, a girl told me this:
'When I met you, I saw something different in you, it was like everyone were black cubes, and you were a blue, shining triangle, with a God-like eye on your side'
And I started to believe that. I knew that was accurate, but I had no way to make it shure. But it was there, there waiting for me to notice.
One fine day, I checked my inbox. I gave mi e-mail direction to nearly avery site that asked for it, to get reading material, to download movies, music, anything. So, I checked a mail named 'Dating Tips', it was written by a guy named David DeAngelo, a well-known seduction man. I read the mail and discovered that some spark inside of me was lit. The title was: "How to impress ANY woman", a title I was inmmediatly drawn to. And it contained:
(All rights to David De Angelo, this information is provided with ilusrtative purposes, and used for "ElblogdeCrisis" as a sample of an e-mail I possess, as former suscriber)
HOW TO IMPRESS ANY WOMANCopyright 2005 David DeAngelo Communications
I've learned a secret to impressing women that
I'm going to share with you in this newsletter.
It's a secret that probably not 1 in 1,000 men
knows or will ever figure out on his own.
The REASON that most men will never figure out
this particular secret is that it's TOO OBVIOUS.
Let me explain...
I personally think that most men feel a very
powerful desire to IMPRESS women.
If you watch the way a man behaves when he's
talking to a woman he's just met or a woman that
he's on a first date with, you can SEE IT.
Maybe you've been there yourself.
I know I have. Many, many times, in fact.
The feeling that you need to impress a woman
usually comes along with another feeling: DON'T
SCREW THIS UP.
Here are some of the signs that a guy is
feeling the need to "impress" the woman that he's
talking to:
1) He tries to only say "cool" things, or things
that will "impress" the woman.
2) He acts nervous and stilted during the
conversation... sometimes coming across as
"formal".
3) He tries to figure out what the woman wants
to hear.
4) If he says something that the woman doesn't
like, he "back-pedals" and tries to change what
he said to suit the woman.
5) He doesn't say anything "risky", doesn't tease
the woman, and doesn't do anything to upset her.
...in other words, when a guy is talking to a
woman that he "likes", he's usually on his "best
behavior", and he's trying to "put his best foot
forward".
To say it again, MEN FEEL A POWERFUL DRIVE
TO IMPRESS THE WOMAN THAT THEY "LIKE".
And this drive to impress often makes them
act UNNATURAL.
Inc., All Rights Reserved.Those words did hit me immediatly.
I read the whole thing, and did wait for the next one to get into my inbox. That was fascinating. Truly fascinating. And I wanted to know those secrets. Those mechanisms. Those techniques. Of course I did, by researching in David D.'s E-books, which I got from his sites. I downloaded the whole collection, and read everything with such passion, that it was compulsive.
I told a fiend of mine, Vir, that I was reading those things, because, there was a girl in our class, that I really liked, and, since I had a new life, a new town, and new looks, I wanted to go for her, with my new wanna-be seducer techniques. He told me some of those things were wrong, but I insisted that those words were true, as I had read of them working. He laughed and said that girls don't like things to be over-acted, and that the best way was to be natural. But now, looking back, he said that because he was a NATURAL. Such charm and vibe, aren't coincidence, no sir, they're not. He jad something else, that attracted people, not only girls to his side, including myself.
That was when I started to practice the things I had read, one day, at the end of the course, and overcoming my fear of rejection, I walked up to the girl I liked and said 'So... what was you note, Did you get a 9?' And she said, 'Yeah, I did'. I was starting to look soooo boring, and before I lost all my artificual charm, I saked for her e-mail. She wrote it, and I added a DeAngelo's techique: 'And while you're at it, write your number, too' Shesmiled and wrote it down. Wow!! Those things worked!!!
That was my first test, my first experience in this sub-culture... and I completely smashed it.
Afterwards, I didn't knew what to do with both the mail and the number, but eventualy, I discovered, in some other book, the following steps to win. The magic formula. The sorcerer's stone...
